In memory of my father: 1939 - 2009

Last week, bapak left us peacefully....

Initially, bapak was warded on Saturday, 24/1/09 when he complained of chest pains. Since mak couldnt get the chest pains to subside, it was decided that he better get warded.

Doctors then discovered that the hole used for dialysis on his left hand was not functioning anymore. In addition, bapak also had pneumonia i.e his lungs were filling up with water. Therefore, a decision was made to operate bapak's throat area for dialysis and getting rid of water in his lungs puposes. The attached tubes did not allow bapak to talk.

Bapak was aware of my presence when I came home on monday night, 26/1/09. By order of our eldest brother (who is a doctor by training), he was sedated very minimally by Normah doctors. He managed to see all of his children. And believe me, bapak was still being bapak! He would ask for things by writing on a notepad, even though his hands were shaky, n adjusted his bed n body to find a comfortable position! Hehe, typical bapak, always a fighter.

By Tuesday morning, 27/1/09, mak n all our my siblings had a meeting with the doctor in charge. It seems that bapak's body could not maintain his heart rate n blood pressure, n had to rely on support machines. This was compounded by his cancer in the lungs and brain.

We agreed to the hard decision of slowly reducing medicine n life support for bapak.

At around 3pm, all medicine n life support systems were totally shut down.

By 3.45pm, bapak left peacefully.

Alhamdulillah, throughout this ordeal, bapak never seem to feel pain. In fact, watching bapak left was pretty much was like watching him slowly fall asleep in front of the tv! Alhamdulillah, recitals of the Yassin n doa from everyone must have helped bapak through his passage into the afterlife.

Bapak's body was bathed n kept at home that nite, n buried before Zohor on Wednesday, 28/1/09. His body was carried all the way to the grave by us sons & his male grandchildren.

He was my teacher, who taught me good english and impeccable manners
He was my disciplinarian, who will punish and rectify all my wrongdoings
He was my general, who will give me clear cut orders to carry out
He was my Imam, who taught me how to pray, and returned me to the true teachings of Islam
He was my fighter, who fought for me when I was unable to fend off by myself
He was my provider, who amply kept me warm and well fed through out my life
He was my wali, who bestowed his blessings on a wife of my choice

He was my bapak

Al fatihah for bapak.

May his soul rest in peace, and may Allah bestow upon him his own jannah among the most faithful muslims in the afterlife.

Amin