my ranting....

hrmmm....
otak bengong....
tensen...
letih....
penat...

huh.....ntahlah....
i m still looking...
looking for my one big break...
bayangan utk give up...
entah berapa kali dah terlintas di kepala hotak aku...
dlm masa 3 ari nih....

too much negativity around me...
i need people who support me...
not people who drag me down....
i know i m not doing too good...
but i m learning...
and no one can accuse me of not trying...
i try god damn...
muthafucking..
HARD....

the payback is just not here yet...
not yet...
belom rezeki aku....
try as hard as u might...
tp kalau bukan rezeki...
bukan rezeki lah!

heh......setengah org tak paham...
ingat buat bisnes leh kaye dlm masa satu malam ke?
ceh...
nak kaya dlm masa satu mlm...
pegi le main nombo ekor!!

heh......i wont give up...
I WONT GIVE UP....
dont bring me down...
i wont give up...
cuz this is for me...
n my precious nur

i wont fail...
not in this life...

I WONT FAIL!!

2nd Ramadhan

heh....
mak aih!!!
biar betol!!!
last sekali aku posting kat sini....ujong bulan september
tihihihihihi....

anywayz.....Ramadhan telah menjelma....
God gives u 12 months in a year...
n requests Muslims to behave for one whole month..
fair deal, in my opinion

hehehehhe...

i've been caught up with the usual grind...
cume semalam je....aku tensen banyak...
hehe....needless to say...
things went wrong....or to be exact...
my PRINTER went gaga, n gave up on me....
buat sakit hati je balik semula ke opis memalam buter...
semata mata nak atorkan printer balik!

but....of course...
the real issue is way down there...
at the back of my head...
my life...my stuffs....everything paid 4 by my parents...
sisters...
hehe...
26 years old....n i hv not reached financial independence...
well...i could have...if i stayed at my old workplace...
but...hehe...i take risks...
n i certainly luv to work for me n myself only!

hehe....tensen gak...bile dipikir pikirkan...
rase nak meletup kepala hotak aku...
skooter-mama bayarkan
kete-akak bayarkan
bil tepon-pepandai aku sendiri ler
dah pulak abg aku tepon pagi semalam...
cakap aku kene bayar aku nyer study loan...
ada org yg contact dier...
hehe...
memacam...
kalo nak give up...memang senang...
but hell...

i do not run from anything!

ari ni pulak...dr pagi tadi...sampai lewat petang...
anta itu, anta ini...
check itu, check ini....
source itu, source ini...
tihihhihhi.....kakak aku pulak call.....
bwk aku gi shopping...beli kasut keje baru....tihihihihi
dan ada org call...suroh collect P.O utk keje baru...
hahahhahah....
rezeki ari nih...lepas tensen nak mampos mlm tadi kot???

hahahahahha

hehe.....
sib baik la ade permaisuri gemerlap cahaya ku yg sentiasa menemani!

takde dier.....

lame dah aku patah semangat....

alahai idup....

apesal la ko ni tak buleh nak simple simple?

tihihihihihihi